Dear Internet,
This is a rant.
Most humans make me want to bang my head against a wall. Especially religious humans, egotistical humans, and humans from cities. When I meet egotistical religious humans from cities, my head just about explodes.
Also, what is with the decay of the English language?!
Okay. In order, backwards:
English: I blame a lot of the decay of English on pop culture. The lyrics to songs nowadays are barely even lyrics. It's basically slang, swearing, alcohol, and sex. Pop music makes me sick and sad. Why people actually listen to that shit is beyond me. It's barely even music. Also, less thought is being put into novels, and less and less people are actually READING anymore! Just look at Twilight! That was pretty much just a thought stream put down on paper (and not even a very GOOD thought stream, at that). The things people are reading most nowadays, especially the younger ones (our future), are text messages and anything on the internet. If anyone is trying to learn English, those are two of the WORST places to learn it.
I guess that's part of the reason I'm drawn so much to British entertainment lately, because over there in England, they actually use the English language! It's amazing! Seriously, though, have you ever sat there and compared American insults with British insults? There is no comparison, really. British insults are much more creative and interesting, and often, much more insulting because they can be so specific and aren't so overused. British novels, I've found, are also better-written than American novels, and a lot of my favorite authors either live in the UK or went there for inspiration. And then, of course, there's the genius of British comedy abundant on British television. Just look at Monty Python. That stuff is GOLD!
It's probably also the reason that I tend to lean towards older music. At least 80% of the music I listen to was written before 1990. The 60s, 70s, and 80s are, in my mind, the golden age of music. After that, music went to pot. (Pop music started going to pot in the 80s, and even some crappiness was detectable in the 70s, but it wasn't that bad, for the most part. Then, the 90s hit... Oh 90s... *facepalm* why???)
People from cities: I do not like cities. They're too crowded. I like to have my personal space, yes, but I also hate dealing with large quantities of people. I hate being in crowds. This is for two reasons: one, I have a thing about getting lost; two, I've found that most people tend to be of a much lower intelligence level than myself. More people = more idiots. There is nothing quite so frustrating as a giant group of idiots.
People from cities also have this fascinating habit of talking in slang and always being in a hurry. I realize that not all people who live in cities are like this, but a big enough majority is, and I'd like to avoid that majority. They annoy the FUCK out of me.
Egotistical people: Anyone with a huge ego annoys the fuck out of me, as well. The more egotistical, egocentric, narcissistic, and self-important someone is, the more they annoy me. There is just no talking to these people. They only care about themselves, and they take it for granted that you will care about them as well, and they expect everyone to treat them as if they are above the rest of the population. It makes me want to punch some sense into them- or maybe knock it into them with a sledgehammer or a baseball bat. Or, hell, just kill the mirror-worshippers! Do the world some good.
Religious people: Oh, God, religious people! (See what I did there?)
If one more person says the word "prayer" to me today, I'm going to punch them in the face!
I'm not one for hate or violence, but these people just drive me up a wall. They think they're being smart when they invoke circular reasoning and quote their precious holy books. In the worst cases, it is literally impossible to prove to them that they are wrong. It is sickeningly easy to prove them wrong on a multitude of points, but trying to prove to THEM that they are wrong is like trying to push a rhinoceros up a hill with a toothpick. They absolutely refuse to listen to any views opposing their own.
It's not that I'm antisocial, or even that I'm shy. I greatly enjoy the company of my friends and others who are entertaining and intelligent. But you can see why I tend to avoid people in general. It's because they're all pus-brained twats!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Too Big A Heart
Dear Internet,
It pains me to see how many good people believe in Christianity. There are so many kind-hearted, friendly, loving, well-meaning people who honestly believe that the Christian religion is true, and it breaks my heart knowing that they all believe in a lie. Not just a lie-- a pack of lies, a book of lies, centuries of lies, the biggest lies ever told! That they devote so much time and effort and energy to something that's not there... that they want so much to help other people but they think that prayer will help, and so they pray instead of doing something genuinely helpful...
And I'd gladly be the one to shatter their illusions, but I know that it would break all their hearts. It would confuse them, hurt them, send them into a spiral of sadness and distrust. In the end, many of them would hate me and erase what I had said from their memories, even though I would have spoken the truth. Were it possible to tell them all, to wake them all up and prove that there is no god, without them attacking me and collapsing into depression, just imagine what the world could be like!
Hell (which doesn't exist), if I could tell every religious person in the world that there is no god, that their religion is a lie, and if they would all listen to me and accept what I had to say, imagine what would happen! Countries would unite! People would no longer have to set aside many important moral differences because those moral differences would cease to exist without the dictation of religions telling them what is right and what is wrong! Everywhere, man would reach out to aid his fellow man! Money would be donated to help the less fortunate. Wars would be less frequent. Accounts of history would begin to agree with each other more and more.
But although a time may come when religion is once and for all finally eradicated from the minds of humans, it is not going to happen for at least years, more probably decades, or even centuries. People want so much to believe that they are right; that is why similar religions have not merged and never will, such as Judaism and Islam. People want so much to believe that there is an afterlife, that they have a soul and a father in the sky who is looking out for them constantly, who loves them and has their best interests in mind. People want to believe that they have something to fall back on when they make a bad decision. People do not want to let go of their religions.
And so, although I could tell them all that there is no god, I cannot; they would not listen. And those that would listen would be heartbroken.
Sometimes I wish I was colder, that I could look into the faces of those sweet, well-meaning, friendly people I see every Sunday and tell them point-blank that they're wasting their time; that they should do what they can while they're still alive because there is no afterlife; there is no god-- but I can't. I'm just not hard-hearted enough to do that.
Wishing and praying are pointless things; I know. And so writing and publishing this will accomplish virtually nothing. I know this... but maybe there's someone out there who will read this and get something out of it. Maybe I'll have helped somebody, reached out to somebody.
If not, at least I've helped myself by letting out these feelings. It does no good to keep them locked inside.
It pains me to see how many good people believe in Christianity. There are so many kind-hearted, friendly, loving, well-meaning people who honestly believe that the Christian religion is true, and it breaks my heart knowing that they all believe in a lie. Not just a lie-- a pack of lies, a book of lies, centuries of lies, the biggest lies ever told! That they devote so much time and effort and energy to something that's not there... that they want so much to help other people but they think that prayer will help, and so they pray instead of doing something genuinely helpful...
And I'd gladly be the one to shatter their illusions, but I know that it would break all their hearts. It would confuse them, hurt them, send them into a spiral of sadness and distrust. In the end, many of them would hate me and erase what I had said from their memories, even though I would have spoken the truth. Were it possible to tell them all, to wake them all up and prove that there is no god, without them attacking me and collapsing into depression, just imagine what the world could be like!
Hell (which doesn't exist), if I could tell every religious person in the world that there is no god, that their religion is a lie, and if they would all listen to me and accept what I had to say, imagine what would happen! Countries would unite! People would no longer have to set aside many important moral differences because those moral differences would cease to exist without the dictation of religions telling them what is right and what is wrong! Everywhere, man would reach out to aid his fellow man! Money would be donated to help the less fortunate. Wars would be less frequent. Accounts of history would begin to agree with each other more and more.
But although a time may come when religion is once and for all finally eradicated from the minds of humans, it is not going to happen for at least years, more probably decades, or even centuries. People want so much to believe that they are right; that is why similar religions have not merged and never will, such as Judaism and Islam. People want so much to believe that there is an afterlife, that they have a soul and a father in the sky who is looking out for them constantly, who loves them and has their best interests in mind. People want to believe that they have something to fall back on when they make a bad decision. People do not want to let go of their religions.
And so, although I could tell them all that there is no god, I cannot; they would not listen. And those that would listen would be heartbroken.
Sometimes I wish I was colder, that I could look into the faces of those sweet, well-meaning, friendly people I see every Sunday and tell them point-blank that they're wasting their time; that they should do what they can while they're still alive because there is no afterlife; there is no god-- but I can't. I'm just not hard-hearted enough to do that.
Wishing and praying are pointless things; I know. And so writing and publishing this will accomplish virtually nothing. I know this... but maybe there's someone out there who will read this and get something out of it. Maybe I'll have helped somebody, reached out to somebody.
If not, at least I've helped myself by letting out these feelings. It does no good to keep them locked inside.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Hold the phone-
Dear Internet,
So, wait a minute. In the story of the tower of babble, all the humans on the earth spoke the same language and were working together to accomplish something great. God saw that and decided to scramble everyone's brains so that they all spoke different languages. So... God is against the unification of the human race? God doesn't want us to come together, put aside our differences, and accomplish great things?
Creationists, Christians, Catholics... do you guys READ your fucking Bibles?!
So, wait a minute. In the story of the tower of babble, all the humans on the earth spoke the same language and were working together to accomplish something great. God saw that and decided to scramble everyone's brains so that they all spoke different languages. So... God is against the unification of the human race? God doesn't want us to come together, put aside our differences, and accomplish great things?
Creationists, Christians, Catholics... do you guys READ your fucking Bibles?!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
What I Have Learned Thusfar
Dear Internet,
I have learned much in these past couple of months. You remember my first agnostic entry, Skepticism and Catholicism. Well, since then I have been researching many fields, such as biology, philosophy, history, archaeology, and mythology, and I have come to the conclusion that the Bible is a work of fiction.
Furthermore, I am becoming convinced that Jesus was not a historical figure. There are far too many parallels between his life and the lives of Buddha and Mithra for me to believe anymore.
Many of my questions have been answered, and they have all been answered by atheists. Some of these atheists were philosophers, some scientists, some historians, some archaeologists, some anthropologists. There were comedians, studiers of folklore, and even humble YouTubers. All together, though, there is no doubt left in my mind: I have become an atheist.
I am still studying the origins of Christianity, looking at other religions for basis of comparison, and investigating to find the truth. In order to come out to my very Catholic family, I am going to need to have a strong, decisive case and a wide base of knowledge to defend my position. I anticipate a very negative reaction, and I further anticipate that I will have to hide my beliefs from my younger siblings. In fact, I expect this to happen.
If you remember, I said that I did not believe in evolution or the big bang theory. I still have yet to be convinced of either, but evidence is beginning to point more to the possibility of these theories, and evolution is, in fact, considered by most scientists to be a fact, not a theory. I intend to read the works of Darwin and look at books on extinct creatures. I shall also, at some point, be researching the big bang theory and evidence backing it up.
I mean to leave no stone left unturned. I need to know what the truth is.
I am afraid, I confess, to come out to my family. It may yet be months before I do.
But to you, Internet, I will be entirely honest: I am an atheist.
It occurs to me that I have changed much over the years.
In middle school, I hated homosexuality. I thought it was stupid. It made no sense to me why people would choose to be gay. Now, I have learned that homosexuals are, in fact, born that way, and I have become supportive of them. My lack of understanding as a younger person led me to curiosity and the desire to understand.
In middle school, I had questions about my faith- I had always had questions- but I still thought that other religions were stupid. It made me sad and upset when people did not agree with my religious views. Then as I became older, I came up with more and more questions, and late this past summer, the questions drew to a head and led me down the path to atheism.
In middle school, I thought that come high school, I would be tall, thin, pretty, blonde, and engaged. Yet here I am now, still a size 12 jeans, still the same height, still with brown hair, and having lost the only boy I ever truly loved because we grew apart.
The past me would never have expected how things would turn out. The past me would have never believed I'd be a supporter of homosexuals, a proud geek/nerd, or, most shockingly of all, an atheist.
"Life is what happens when you are making other plans."
Truer words have never been spoken.
I have learned much in these past couple of months. You remember my first agnostic entry, Skepticism and Catholicism. Well, since then I have been researching many fields, such as biology, philosophy, history, archaeology, and mythology, and I have come to the conclusion that the Bible is a work of fiction.
Furthermore, I am becoming convinced that Jesus was not a historical figure. There are far too many parallels between his life and the lives of Buddha and Mithra for me to believe anymore.
Many of my questions have been answered, and they have all been answered by atheists. Some of these atheists were philosophers, some scientists, some historians, some archaeologists, some anthropologists. There were comedians, studiers of folklore, and even humble YouTubers. All together, though, there is no doubt left in my mind: I have become an atheist.
I am still studying the origins of Christianity, looking at other religions for basis of comparison, and investigating to find the truth. In order to come out to my very Catholic family, I am going to need to have a strong, decisive case and a wide base of knowledge to defend my position. I anticipate a very negative reaction, and I further anticipate that I will have to hide my beliefs from my younger siblings. In fact, I expect this to happen.
If you remember, I said that I did not believe in evolution or the big bang theory. I still have yet to be convinced of either, but evidence is beginning to point more to the possibility of these theories, and evolution is, in fact, considered by most scientists to be a fact, not a theory. I intend to read the works of Darwin and look at books on extinct creatures. I shall also, at some point, be researching the big bang theory and evidence backing it up.
I mean to leave no stone left unturned. I need to know what the truth is.
I am afraid, I confess, to come out to my family. It may yet be months before I do.
But to you, Internet, I will be entirely honest: I am an atheist.
It occurs to me that I have changed much over the years.
In middle school, I hated homosexuality. I thought it was stupid. It made no sense to me why people would choose to be gay. Now, I have learned that homosexuals are, in fact, born that way, and I have become supportive of them. My lack of understanding as a younger person led me to curiosity and the desire to understand.
In middle school, I had questions about my faith- I had always had questions- but I still thought that other religions were stupid. It made me sad and upset when people did not agree with my religious views. Then as I became older, I came up with more and more questions, and late this past summer, the questions drew to a head and led me down the path to atheism.
In middle school, I thought that come high school, I would be tall, thin, pretty, blonde, and engaged. Yet here I am now, still a size 12 jeans, still the same height, still with brown hair, and having lost the only boy I ever truly loved because we grew apart.
The past me would never have expected how things would turn out. The past me would have never believed I'd be a supporter of homosexuals, a proud geek/nerd, or, most shockingly of all, an atheist.
"Life is what happens when you are making other plans."
Truer words have never been spoken.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Finally Learning
Dear Internet,
For a while, I was afraid to ask questions. I thought that asking questions meant that I was stupid. I thought that revealing I didn't know something would make me look bad.
I realized about a year ago that this was stupid and I started questioning everything. I found I had curiosity pent up inside me from months, possibly years of not asking any questions. And then I began to realize that I doubt everything about the religion I was raised on.
Now that I've gotten into heavily questioning religion in general, debating metaphysics, researching philosophical debates, and looking into the viewpoints of atheists versus theists, I've realized that the religion I had was partially responsible for the hibernation of my curiosity. Remember the tree of knowledge in the creation story? Remember how they were told not to eat from the tree of knowledge because it was a sin? I just realized that the Catholic church, heck- the Christian church in general- has been telling me since I was born that knowledge is bad. More specifically, that the pursuit of knowledge is a sin.
Well, since I don't believe in sins anymore, I'm finally learning. I'm finally finding the answers to so many questions I've built up over the years. And do know who's answering them?
Scientists.
For a while, I was afraid to ask questions. I thought that asking questions meant that I was stupid. I thought that revealing I didn't know something would make me look bad.
I realized about a year ago that this was stupid and I started questioning everything. I found I had curiosity pent up inside me from months, possibly years of not asking any questions. And then I began to realize that I doubt everything about the religion I was raised on.
Now that I've gotten into heavily questioning religion in general, debating metaphysics, researching philosophical debates, and looking into the viewpoints of atheists versus theists, I've realized that the religion I had was partially responsible for the hibernation of my curiosity. Remember the tree of knowledge in the creation story? Remember how they were told not to eat from the tree of knowledge because it was a sin? I just realized that the Catholic church, heck- the Christian church in general- has been telling me since I was born that knowledge is bad. More specifically, that the pursuit of knowledge is a sin.
Well, since I don't believe in sins anymore, I'm finally learning. I'm finally finding the answers to so many questions I've built up over the years. And do know who's answering them?
Scientists.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Thanksgiving
Dear Internet,
Thanksgiving is in just a couple of days, and I have never looked forward to it less... but then, I've never really looked forward to it at all, so I guess that's not saying much. I just never really understood the appeal- all your relatives get together under one roof, which never has enough room to fit you all, and all the family drama breaks out, certain relatives that can't stand each other make it very obvious to the most casual observer so that even children are sucked into the drama, and in general it's just melodramatic and frustrating. In addition to that, I don't even like cranberry sauce, and I'm a vegetarian, so I don't eat the turkey. I couldn't care less about the turkey. And the turkey is the central part of the meal.
Do you want to know what else I don't like about Thanksgiving? The whole premise of the holiday is to eat. That's America for you. And the food isn't even authentic- they ate completely different food at the first Thanksgiving. (I don't remember what it was, but I'm sure google has it somewhere.)
I just don't see the appeal.
Thanksgiving is in just a couple of days, and I have never looked forward to it less... but then, I've never really looked forward to it at all, so I guess that's not saying much. I just never really understood the appeal- all your relatives get together under one roof, which never has enough room to fit you all, and all the family drama breaks out, certain relatives that can't stand each other make it very obvious to the most casual observer so that even children are sucked into the drama, and in general it's just melodramatic and frustrating. In addition to that, I don't even like cranberry sauce, and I'm a vegetarian, so I don't eat the turkey. I couldn't care less about the turkey. And the turkey is the central part of the meal.
Do you want to know what else I don't like about Thanksgiving? The whole premise of the holiday is to eat. That's America for you. And the food isn't even authentic- they ate completely different food at the first Thanksgiving. (I don't remember what it was, but I'm sure google has it somewhere.)
I just don't see the appeal.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Politics make me sick.
Dear Internet,
Why do people insist on bashing Sarah Palin left and right? I don't understand. Most of these people don't even know what her real stance is on any political issues, and it's out of sheer ignorance. Too many people are content with listening to the mainstream media, which has a heavy liberal bias, and which seriously misrepresents practically everything when it comes to politics. What the fuck is the mainstream media's problem with conservatives anyway?
I support Sarah Palin. I also support gay rights. Do I back her on her stance against gay rights? No. Do I think she is going to ruin America if she becomes President, just because of her stance against gay rights? Well of course not!!
I wrote an entire 5-page essay on this topic last year, about how the mainstream media is muzzling conservatives, misrepresenting our ideals and values, and ignoring anything which does not suit their views. They demonize conservatives, attack them left and right with so many logical fallacies, I'd need to use tally marks to keep score, because I can't write down the names (of the fallacies) that quickly. (And I'm a pretty damned fast writer, too!)
People of America: WAKE UP, do some research, and do some soul-searching, for goshsakes!! Sarah Palin is not who the media has made her out to be!
Why do people insist on bashing Sarah Palin left and right? I don't understand. Most of these people don't even know what her real stance is on any political issues, and it's out of sheer ignorance. Too many people are content with listening to the mainstream media, which has a heavy liberal bias, and which seriously misrepresents practically everything when it comes to politics. What the fuck is the mainstream media's problem with conservatives anyway?
I support Sarah Palin. I also support gay rights. Do I back her on her stance against gay rights? No. Do I think she is going to ruin America if she becomes President, just because of her stance against gay rights? Well of course not!!
I wrote an entire 5-page essay on this topic last year, about how the mainstream media is muzzling conservatives, misrepresenting our ideals and values, and ignoring anything which does not suit their views. They demonize conservatives, attack them left and right with so many logical fallacies, I'd need to use tally marks to keep score, because I can't write down the names (of the fallacies) that quickly. (And I'm a pretty damned fast writer, too!)
People of America: WAKE UP, do some research, and do some soul-searching, for goshsakes!! Sarah Palin is not who the media has made her out to be!
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